Mistrust

The moment when I heard those words you say

All my dreams began to fade

Walls began to break

The parody of my past

Are now becoming my present

Foreseeing my future is so unclear

I feel so pale

No color nor touch of rainbow

I hear no sound or even the rhythm of my heart

There's no love or hate, but it waves the memories away

I could feel the coldness of the seawater

Even the voice of you gives me chill

Fear of losing you or loving you fearlessly

I am scared to choose one

if I could make a decision

maybe I could choose to run away

with my heart bleeding

And, that's okay

I'm okay.